Mommy Attire

I'm sure this post is going to cause some people to freak out a bit. I'm just going to be honest though because if we are all honest with ourselves then more than likely you know what I'm talking about. A big fear of mine is to slip into the "mommy attire". Ya know what I'm talking about...where you start wearing tshirts, ratty pants, and clothes from departments that I won't mention in case any one reading this shops there :). Being a mom I can see how most women don't choose to look like a "mom", but somehow through years of sacrificing for the family their own needs/desires are pushed to the back burner. This is where my fear comes in. What if one day I wake up and I AM shopping at those department stores? It's already starting...my closet is A LOT less dressy than it use to be. It has to be though. What I use to wear wouldn't be functional as a mom and who wants to run errands/getting a baby in and out of the car with 4in heels on - I have done that the last two Sundays and it IS NOT fun! I learned all too well on Sophie's dedication when she was two weeks old that some things I wore before were just going to have to go. I had a gorgeous, Banana Republic, fuchsia SILK dress on for her dedication. Well, after leaking through it - sorry if there are any guys are reading this - and Sophie drooling and spitting up I realized that maybe a silk dress isn't functional for me any more. So to the back of the closet it went - after being dry cleaned. I'm sure all of us young girls think that it can never happen to us, but I'm sure that those moms thought the same thing. My attire now consists of jeans, tshirts, and comfy dresses. Of course I try to accessories with jewelry - if I can afford it, ha -but how long will that last? Will I eventually start slipping. I know this is a extremely trivial matter, but I really am concerned. I wondered if I'm going to wake up one morning in and realize I'm totally in the "mommy attire". This is why I make an effort every day to put make up on and get dressed. Even if all I am doing is cleaning. I really hope this doesn't make me sound shallow! It's honestly something that I'm struggling with right now. I think it's because I went through my closet last night for goodwill and realized that I was banking my decisions for rather I kept the clothes or not on 1) how comfy was it 2)was it functional and the BIG 3) did it even fit anymore?!?!?! which leads me to my next point...

WEIGHT, ugh! I was planning on writing about this after I picked up my old size 2 jeans and just about had an emotional break down, and was surprised that my sister had just written about it sometime during the night. My sister and I are so much a like that it's creepy sometimes. You hear about the siblings that have a freakish connection...well, that's us. We once bought the EXACT same eye glasses while she was in London and I was in Cleveland. Anywho...back to our issue of weight. I was very sick of hearing, "once you have a baby your body is never the same." Well, I am now part of the herd. Although I try to refrain from saying that to women who don't have kids or are pregnant. Let them enjoy their innocence I say :) - they'll more than likely have to deal with it sooner or later! At my 6 week check up I was feeling pretty good when the scale said that I was only 3-4 lbs heavier than my SPW - "starting pregnancy weight". Then it all came crashing down or more correctly shooting up like rockets! I'm not even sure what happened. I like to blame it on the pure exhaustion that drove me to eat...and eat....and eat. Basically I ate myself all the way to 10 lbs heavier than my SPW. So now I am on weight watchers trying get it off. But I wonder will it even bring me back to "my normal"? I hear, no. It's like everything seems that it's back it place after having Sophie, but it's not. Ok, this is slightly embarrassing, but too funny not to post :). I was getting ready today and I had Sophie sitting next to me playing with her own make up - not that she wears it she just plays with it while I put mine on. Well, next thing I know I have a sweet little hand grabbing that little roll that has now found it's way over my pants. Thanks, sweetie, for pointing that out. I had to refrain from mentioning to her how I carried her for 9 whole months, had leg cramps, back aches, and now had a little reminder to go with it, ha! So now I am doing yoga at home - because who can afford the Y these days :) - and staying dedicated to weight watchers. And can I just say that I am SO noticing a difference in my joints. I mean I'm only 25...what in the world?! Am I seriously already feeling the effects of aging? No joke I was sitting on the floor working on something and when I got up I could barely stand up. Good grief is all I have to say! I know the mom's that have had multiple children are probably laughing their heads off at me right now, but that's ok...let me live with the comfort that it won't get worse...I'll deal with the reality when it's time :).

Weight Lifter

At Last

I have posted several times about Sophie's sleeping. To be honest, it has been probably the most frustrating thing that I have faced with Sophie. I am a very by the book person. I follow the rules. Therefore, I thought that I could do the same thing with my children. Even though I "knew" that not every child is the same and if I had a nickel for every time I heard, "You can read all the books, but your child will never follow what they say" I would be one rich woman. So why is it that it is just now sinking in?! It just hit me that Sophie's sleeping is part of her. She will always struggle with it more than likely. A friend of mine has a daughter that is the same way. She never slept when she was a baby and still has problems. A couple of days ago they were watching Sophie and Madison told her mom that Sophie reminded her a lot of herself because she had such a hard time settling down. I think that Madison hit the nail on the head....Sophie has a hard time settling down! Bless her heart she just doesn't want to miss ANYTHING so she fights sleep as if it were the most horrible thing on earth. I have tried transitioning Sophie from play to sleep by singing to her while slow dancing. It helped but not very much. For the few that read this I would love any suggestions!

My baby is growing up!

I was just looking through my album from the summer on FB. I went to the first picture of Sophie which was taken at the beginning of June. I was SHOCKED at how teeny she looked. I guess being with her everyday I don't see the drastic changes in Sophie. Even though I know that they are taking place I just don't see it as obviously as others may. She has lost that little baby look. She now is favoring like looks of a toddler more than anything. She has developmentally taken off the past couple of weeks. I have to admit that it is bittersweet. I love that she is healthy, but have a twinge of sadness that it is all passing so quickly. I have never been one of those mothers that wishes things to pass. Even when I was getting absolutely no sleep I wasn't not living for the next stage because I knew that I would never get those moments back and that Sophie even though she is still totally dependent on me is learning independence - if that makes sense. It hit me today that every day Sophie is gaining independence and one day she'll have enough to make it on her own. Learning independence doesn't start in middle school, high school, etc...it's a little bit everyday from the day they're born. There is so much that Sophie can do now that I had to do for her when she was younger. Sorry...didn't mean to get in to that...it was just my revelation for the day. Anyways...here are the pictures to compare her growth...

Sophie LOVES to bang things. She is constantly grabbing and feeling everything. Eventually she will start banging on it. Well, my mother decided to let her play the piano. Sophie LOVED it!Sophie really likes music as well -when I was pregnant with her she would go crazy moving all around whenever she heard music!...so she gets to do two things she loves at once, ha! She also loves to have her feet propped up...yes, she finally has at least one thing from me :). The pictures below are priceless!

Preparing for finger races, haha!!

Sissy, in the video below you will see that you have to start training your fingers very early! It starts by telling them what you expect of them!

Sorry for the poor quality and the angle! Sophie will stop doing whatever it was she was doing EVERYTIME she sees the camera so I have to hide it!